Momentum.

I've completely lost the momentum to write blog posts lately. School and in particular Research Congress has been sucking the life out of me lately. Although tiring and boring, I actually enjoyed research congress this year. Lately, I've been feeling a bit of desolation, like everything I've done has been in vain. But when presenting in research congress, on my research, the look of wonder and interest on their faces as I present gives me a sense of achievement. That I've contributed, however slightly, to the sum knowledge of everything gives me a sense of satisfaction after so much hard work. To that effect, I'm actually quite excited about SSEF. I know many people, including close friends of mine, did and did not get in, so not wanting to appear conceited or arrogant, I've been playing down SSEF. In fact, I'm quite excited and honored by it. However much people say SSEF doesn't really mean anything or doesn't look good on your transcript; the fact that random people can look at my hard work and independently agree that its good just validates my work in a way friends or teachers, who may be compelled to like it, does not.

Heh, I'm sounding like Bryce now. But fear not, I'll still clean the toilet :D I just really need this nice thing in a shitty week right now.

Highlight of the week: UK people. I haven't hung out with them enough to make any judgments, but I find them to be a laid back bunch, probably a bit stiffer and on guard in foreign climes. The fact that we're feeding them all sorts of weird stuff doesn't help XD All the UK buddies having the time of their lives as usual :D Although I'm insanely jealous. As I sit here typing this, they're probably having drinks in Timbre or a BBQ at Ms Tan's house. >:O But good for them all the same :)

Lost the momentum to do all the homework I set out for myself today. Will try again tmr. Listening to simple plan now. The earlier songs. Reminiscing about the past. I realised I've lost a lot of friends along the way. Not really lost. More of forgotten, as I've made new friends. In chronological order, Robert, Song Jing, Issac, Jeremy Tan, Boon Kuang, Zhi Ping, Byron, Jan. And these are just the few I can remember from primary school. I wonder if I could recognise their faces today. Probably not. Not to mention the New Town crew, Bukit Merah crew, random scouts, random people I've met. Sigh.

Perhaps I should give some of them a call. Or one of them.